After one knows me for a few years there is a truth about me that is quite apparent. I am stubborn. There–I said it. When it comes to fashion sometimes I just get a hold of an idea that I don’t look good in _______ thus it should be banned from my closet. Permanently. If you’ve read my blog for longer than five posts you’ve probably discovered that I, like many women, struggle with finding clothes that allow me to feel good about myself. Usually it’s because I’m having a bad hair day or maybe I’m breaking out–but something holds me back from feeling “beautiful”. It is to that end that I have avoided v-neck shirts. The reason? I’m pale skinned. My husband calls my skin delicate but as I go about my day I see beautiful tan women and in turn, hide behind my clothes.
When I wear a v-neck I keep looking right at how pale my skin is and how ugly it makes me feel. Now I know you’re about to scroll to the bottom of this post and write lovely comments about how gorgeous my skin is…my hubby tells me every day and means it. I appreciate the sentiment but hold on for a moment.
Late at night when my husband and I are sharing some deep conversation he usually gets down deep into my soul with his questions. I have a love/hate relationship with his questions. He knows how to get to the root of my issues. Most times regarding these little fashion stubborn thoughts I want him to ask the right question that causes me to go “that’s it!” and after a sobbing hug I’m cured and no longer feel ugly about that particular thing…but sometimes life is more simple than that. The thousand mile journey begins with a step…not some deep conversation that suddenly makes one realize that they are now at the end of the journey.
So, I’ve been admiring others in v-necks. My hubby loves me in v-necks (something about easy access to my neck for cute little kisses…I don’t know what’s he’s talking about, though). …and goodness, I want to wear v-necks! But I’m stubborn. I won’t. I found one at The Gap but it was too deep…another at TJ Maxx wasn’t the right fabric… You see the trend? Finally I gave up and throw in the towel on my stubbornness. I ask some friends and I finally purchased a v-neck from Target. …and I love it. Might I say the Stella & Dot, Sutton necklace compliments a v-neck quite well.
Well, that was a ramble. But if I have anything to say after that it is that from now on, when my hubby calls me stubborn: I’m going to give him the glare he deserves then go off and ponder how to break through and try something I’ve been holding back on doing. Up next: sky diving! …or maybe not. Baby Steps…baby steps. How about those _______ I’ve been avoiding for years.